Rainbow High Burnout (How it affects me as an international collector and more stuff)

So,as the title says,I am suffering with Rainbow High Burnout lately. And as an international collector,this affects me a lot.
I began my Rainbow High collection in 2022.

My first RH doll was Hali (she arrived on october from last year),then my second one was Mila (she arrived at january),third was Harper Dune (she arrived in june),fourth was Nicole (she arrived at september) and now I have Glitch.

However,I still think and feel that I need more. That I need to get more,that I need to fight against the time,

I feel the FOMO (Fear of Missing Out) destroying the rest of mental health that I have. Everytime I see leaks,I do not feel the same joy as I used to. I feel… really sad.
I mean,I still like the doll leaks in general,but I feel more empty. I feel burned out. Even more with Rainbow High.
It’s not the first time that this subject (doll burnout) is brought up on the community, there is even an video from plastic_heartzz that talks about it.

(I recommend this video a lot! However,if you want to know more about overcomsuption on an capitalist society,there are lot of videos that can help)

But this time,I am talking about Rainbow High Burnout specifically.

Why RH/SH specifically,Thay?

Well,it’s because they usually launch a lot. I see the leaks, online reviews and more, however I do not see them in the stores the same way as Monster High. They are not available in most part of my country. And when I see them,they are SO EXPENSIVE. I saw images of Shadow High dolls on Ciatoy (an brazilian toy store) being sold by R$799,99. R$799,99 is not cheap here. Many people in Brazil doesn’t have that money, many don’t have many conditions to even have basic sanitation.

Which makes me sad is seeing people hungry near where I live, and to say that an weekly, or monthly market purchase is really expensive is an understatement.
When I go with my grandma to make an market purchase,I always get angry seeing the prices.
Rainbow High dolls are the same price as an weekly or monthly market purchase. I always get pissed of because of this. Many RH dolls are really expensive here. I saw RH Cheer dolls on the same toy store with the price of R$299,99,almost R$300,00. This is nuts. This is too much. And money is an big deal here, even more for my family. Seeing my mom cry because of money is not something that brings me joy. I feel guilty when I spend much money.

I made a tweet about that some time ago,but this still fits:

https://twitter.com/LovelyAutie0604/status/1684906950599827456?t=B9-r6IORyCUPK6DFefzbcA&s=19

And Marina explained about it in an better way than I do:

https://twitter.com/Marina_isawitch/status/1638892581210693634?t=GXUeYuL8ueGZZkSHxV_GsA&s=19

And honestly,I often feel jealous of North Americans collectors,because buying dolls,even more Rainbow High dolls,is easy.

At least,that how it seems. Yes,many people  have to drive to find these dolls on store,which sucks a lot (I have seen cases like this on Brazil,but they are not easy to find as Monster High dolls are. And I never saw Rainbow High dolls in the same frequency as G3 Monster High dolls),but I feel jealous when they find good deals. Like,Costume Ball dolls being US$7,00 that day was such a great find and I was happy for them.

But at the same time,I was fuming inside. I have to buy dolls from Tiendamia (an website that sells dolls from the USA to wherever you are) and even from people that buy them on US and sell them for a better price, and I admit I come from a place of privilege. I am not an saint.

And right now,I do not have conditions to buy an new doll. So,I am looking for a job and I will make sure to get an new one after I get things that I need right now and help my family. My mom supports my hobby,but she thinks that I should be an adult and be responsible. I am responsible. I just need an job.

And dolls are supposed to make me happy,so why I feel this pressure from something that is supposed to make me happy?

Lately,RH/SH dolls doesn’t have the same effect on me.

I feel anxious or just bored. And when I realize I feel bored,I feel guilty anyway.

Many will say that quality is better than quantity.

I  do agree with this on an extent,but I have to point it out that international collectors have to pay the double to get dolls for an even worse quality and worse pricing. I don’t feel the same happiness seeing them,when I convert the prices. It’s not worth it.

SHS3 have some good base dolls,but that’s it. I don’t feel the urge to collect them. Maybe Berry or Lavender or Pinkly,but even them are not that enough to make me want them. Pretty bases,but bland fashion and bland execution. RHS5 is the same. Like Michelle,Kim,Priscilla and Olivia are gorgeous,but gorgeous is not enough.Pretty base dolls,good colours,but I need more,you know? And Aiden is… Aiden. He is just there. He exists. And I know RH/SH is capable of doing more diverse hairstyles,like afropuffs,dreadlocks and more. But they are lazy,which saddens me. Michelle deserves better.

Also, Isaac Larian (the CEO of MGA) supports Isreal and has the possibility of  on using everyone’s money to support the palestinian genocide. Everytime I see this man doing awful things,I am not surprised,I am mostly disappointed. But not surprised. Disappointed because he IS the CEO,he is the face of MGA,directly or indirectly. Also,this is,along with other reasons,why I am feeling disappointed with RH/SH and not wanting to buy any doll for now or any time soon (or never,I am sorry. But I am petty sometimes). This man is not good and while I love these dolls,I will not support this entepreneur and his company.

For now,I will focus on my mental health,my family and my studies.  I will still post periodically,just to let everyone know I am here.

I apologize for talking way too much. I just felt comfortable writing my thoughts here. It is silly,but as my previous therapist said,writing or drawing can make you feel better at the moment.

I hope you have an great day,afternoon or night and I will meet you all again. Stay hydrated,do your skincare,take an good nap,have quality time with your loved ones and have fun and a great time.

With love,Piaf